It’s my birthday and you seriously had to make me feel like shit. You couldn’t just wait until tomorrow? I went all out for YOUR birthday making sure you were as happy as can be and this is what I get? Nice. Shows how much you truly love me.
enjoy these pictures of me not giving a fuck and looking semi-cute at the same time
my birthday is for sure gonna be shit
If I wasn’t okay with it the first time I don’t understand why you’d think I’d be okay with it the 2nd/3rd/4th/etc. but whatever there’s literally no point in stressing over this or saying shit cause it just won’t go through. it’s really fucking embarrassing on my part especially cause people think I’m okay with that shit when I’m not at all and it just makes me look more dumb!!!!!!!!!! im just a piece of shit dumbass too in love to put a fucking end to this bunch of bullshit.
I wish someone would just pick me up and hold me when i got in their car so i could cry my eyes out because ive been dying to for a while now. It sucks holding it in especially because i dont even know why i feel this way i just do! And i want to be held w/o being asked any questions and just go get ice cream but then again i want to be left alone until this weird, empty feeling goes away. Idk.
I real life want to cry because I wish I was a fictional character. I wish I was as smart and adventurous as some of the characters I’ve read about and I wish my life was as interesting. I wish someone would read about me and fall in love with me the way I fell in love with Augustus Waters! Sometimes I wish I could just get in my car and drive to where ever life takes me, just like Collin Singleton. I just physically want to get as far away as possible from everyone I know because my imagination isn’t far enough sometimes. On Saturday i went to a school basketball game and we got to ride on the bus with the team since the game was an hour away from where I live and on the way back I was listening to music just tuning everyone out and looking out the window and for a while it was just me, vampire weekend, John Mayer, and the road. And I wish that I could’ve just kept going and going and going. I blame John Green for these thoughts of mine.
Im starting to feel weird vibes again. I refuse to put myself through any unnecessary shit once again. I’ve been very happy and i’m going to keep it that way for a very long time.
Knowing that i can easily be replaced makes me very scared. Obviously you weren’t that important to the person to begin with if they could replace you just like that, right? But then again maybe the person isnt even replacing you, maybe they’re just not spending as much time with you as they used to which makes you feel replaced and just goes to show how insecure you truly are. I dont know why im thinking about this, i just am.